Thursday, January 9, 2014

Right Place, Right Time

Not to sound like a broken record or a depressing blog-o-bot, but all of this internal examination has got me thinking more about my creative process. Not much has changed since my last post. I'm still in a weird limbo of wants vs. needs, still moving along in my day-to-day life, still looking forward to whatever is meant to happen next. However, rather than wait for life to happen to me, lately I've had a stronger inclination to create my own future. I've found that the need for control is inversely proportionate to my amount of creative output. (i.e. The more of a control freak I tend to be, the less I am doing creatively.) The process of creation is ultimately an exhibition of control. When I am designing, painting, drawing, or otherwise image making, I am making decisions that will determine the appearance and function of the final product. Thus, when I fail to create, I subconciously look toward other aspects of my life to exercise tyranny. And while you may think that this is unhealthy based on my hyperbolic word choice, I'm thinking it ain't all that bad. Rather than molding shapes and lines into image, I am molding my future into more of what I want it to be. Had I been "creative" all this time, would I be content with the state of things as they are? Ultimately, I'm unsure if I would feel as inclined to do something to make my life more exciting and meaningful had I found fulfillment in my usual creative outlets.

They say everything in life happens for a reason. I believe that. There are no such things as coincidences. Right where I am is where I'm meant to be. Whatever I think now are thoughts that are meant to be had. However I feel in this current moment is meant to be felt, indulged in, considered and acted upon. And while I may not know what tomorrow has in store for me, I am certain that I will always be in the right place at the right time. (As long as I avoid those dark, scary alleys.)